Two days in a row :-)

They always told me to go against my nature. To not trust it. To rise above it. My nature was bad. It was ugly. It was dark. I couldn’t let in. I couldn’t nurture it. I had to admonish it, punish it, shame it, abuse it all in the hopes of containing it and maybe even protecting it. 

But what if I can actually trust my nature. What if I could go with my nature. What if I could nourish it and be nourished by it. What if I could tell those people they were wrong. My nature is fucking good. It’s beautiful and creative and fun and expressive and loving and hilarious. And yeah, I’m in a bigger body now but who fuckin cares (other than me?). But what if I could stop being so scared of my nature and allow it to be my guiding star. What if I could choose to believe that deep down I’m enough to allow myself to join the human race and live by my human nature. What if I could just come back down to earth and believe I deserve to be human. Not one day in the future when some supposed future has come about. Not after the toil and the work and the improvement. But today, as I am, now.